My mind is racing filled with names and people who want to get my attention, asking can I pass on this message, can I bring them forward, can I send their love, asking why they dont feel at peace or why did they have to go to spirit
Although I have done everything I know I should do to close down, sometimes this is never enough to close my link to those who obviously need it the most, this is 2am and Im trying to sleep.
I mull over the day, feeling pleased and also proud I was able to link in for so many people today,and Im glad that spirit are pleased too, Im sad for a moment when I think of a spirit child that comes to me daily, with no one to take her messages, 'Where is my Mummy?' She asksI wonder who she is trying to contact, does she even know herself, she tells me of such a tragic life and how she was always told how bad she was, this upsets me, but I try once more to help her to move on
Did I give enough, I think to myself, was I clear, did I send the right message the way spirit wanted me to do so,thinking that the same lady I read for will be awake thinking of the short but powerful link she received from her husband today, saying how sorry he was for leaving her alone, and that he missed her as much as she missed him
I cannot sleep, so decide to check my E-Mails, Knowing if I do this at 2am, I will probably be here when the sun comes up, messages of please help, I feel my life is over, and messages of thanks fill my inbox, and the oh so lovely crank E-Mails telling me, I need to get a life, doing what Im doing is harmful, perhaps if those people were present when linking for a mother, whos child came in from spirit and passed on the most personal things, which filled both my eyes and her mothers eyes to the brim with tears, they wouldnt be so cruel and judge something they know nothing about
As morning comes in, I decide to close my eyes for a few minutes, before everyone awakes and gets ready for their day, 'You need to learn to switch off Gail' says my husband, he is right, but I feel at my happiest when Im linking with spirit, because it also reassures me that those I miss who have crossed over, and fine and living a much happier life, although I can never link with family myself, they send signs of support and I know they are watching and guiding me
I light yet another cigarette, and think Im smoking too much, as I smoke this at the back door, a feather floats by, I catch it and put it with the rest, spirit have sent me, the house is now hectic, and I think about what I have to cram into such a few small hours the days seem to have....
'How long do they last?' 'How long do you do it for for, this spirit thing?' comes an enquirey on my phone, 'Do I still have to pay if Harry doesnt come through and tell me where they money is?' I explain my almost word perfect by now explanation of what I and of course spirit are able to do...
By lunch time Im just beggining my 4th reading, after politely turning down offers to join 'ghost hunting' ventures, All asking for a medium to sit for 12 hours within a 'haunted' place and wait for the spirit world to perform...to which spirit are very aware of these events, and Im sure laugh at them as much as myself
Lunch time, and I shouldnt eat while doing something, my slimming tips tell me, and quite rightly 10 minutes after eating, forget Ive done just that!!
Having read my favourite kind of E-Mails, about events coming in for people, and their joy at feeling spirit alot more since their readings, so rewarding, and so the most pleasurable part of my day
While out shopping, messages come in thick and fast, when you in a supermarket filled with people, 'Please tell them' I hear, passing on that Aunt June is ok and well, is not always appriciated when someone is trying to choose ripe bananas, so I walk on by and appologies to spirit for it not being the 'best time' I want to say to the lady in front on me in the que, your son is fine now, he is standing there next to you, but Im unsure how she will take it
As someones eyes catch mine, I sense they have had trauma within there life, I see their passing before me, in all full details, Just as I think I should perhaps warn them not to drive their car, through a named street, they vanish and I realise , its already happend, and that was a spirit being who caught my eye
House work, tea, children fill a couple more hours, and I get a calling to do some more readings, because I feel its a good time for a strong connection, and Im happy with what Im told to write, and send them off to the eagerly waiting clients, and more lovely rewards come with their reply of thanks, I have 2 home visit readings this evening, and 7pm on the dot the knock on the doors arrives, having set up my 'work station' with my crystals, candles, crystal ball and cards, I invite 2 very nervous clients in, and settle them down and reassure them, a man sits down comfy on my sofa, but he is a spirit male, already waiting for his wifes reading, and he watches and waits until its turn to enter into her reading, a lump in my throat appears as he tells me all he wants to pass on, as she cries Im thinking to myself, be professional Gail and dont start blubbering, my eyes fill with water, and I compose myself, and he blows a kiss to us both and leaves, she holds and squeezes my hand with such force I know he can feel this too, and she thanks me for bringing back to her if for only a short time, what life cruely took away
10pm and Im feeling tired, time to check E-Mails, and I was due to do some liveperson readings, but feel ive nothing more to give today, so decide to not sign on tonight, I grab some food, take a the longest and hottest bath, and settle down with a glass of wine , chat with my girls, and talk over my day with my husband, and listen to his, we talk of our plans, we talk of the future, and I worry because I know how short life can be, and hope we are blessed with being here long enough to forfill them all
My eyes close, my head hits the pillow, and I ask spirit for some time to myself, she comes again, 'Where is my Mummy?' I send her love, I ask my guides to take care of her, and my mind is clear, at least for now, although I wouldnt change a thing, and thank spirit everyday for choosing to come to me, and reassure them, for as long as I can, I will do all I can to help them, and those her on the earth plane they have sadly had to leave behind........until they meet once more in the wonderful world of spirit |
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